The waiting is, indeed, the hardest part.<\/p>\n
I wish I had a better update for you all, but alas, things are not moving too quickly right now. \u00a0They might start moving tomorrow or the next day, maybe, but for today, we\u2019re still waiting. \u00a0Our home study isn\u2019t quite done yet, and that\u2019s what we need to move forward.<\/p>\n
The timeline is getting to me lately and the reality of how long and involved this process is has really sunk in. \u00a0When you first start out and they say \u201c12-18 months\u201d you think, well, that\u2019s not so long. \u00a0And then you\u2019ve been in it for a few months and suddenly 12-18 months away from your child seems like far too much.<\/p>\n
That is, I think, the tricky thing about adoption. \u00a0P4 lives, right now, in an orphanage on the other side of the world. \u00a0He or she gets up in the morning, plays with other kids, eats meals, plays with toys, takes naps, falls down, takes steps, learns words, and just generally lives life, all without the family who already loves him or her, even though we\u2019ve never met. \u00a0We\u2019ve been spending a lot of time praying for kind nannies and that P4 is well loved and well cared for. \u00a0That\u2019s a hard thing for a mama\u2019s heart, because I would rather be the one doing the loving and caring and that\u2019s just not possible right now, so we are hoping that someone is filling that space for us until we get there.<\/p>\n
I find myself frequently doing the time translation and thinking \u201coh, he\u2019s eating breakfast\u201d as I\u2019m going to bed, or \u201coh, maybe it\u2019s nap time\u201d when I wake up in the middle of the night, or \u201cgood night, sweet girl\u201d as I\u2019m waking up. \u00a0It\u2019s a hard and weird way to live. \u00a0I am very much at the point now where I just want our child home<\/i>, and I suspect that will only get worse from here. \u00a0The littlest hold ups drive me bonkers, especially when it\u2019s my fault. \u00a0I forgot to fill out Eden\u2019s medical form which resulted in an afternoon of mad scrambling to get it to her pediatricians office, and I know that\u2019s totally normal, to forget things, but it feels really intense in the moment, awful even, because it feels like it\u2019s directly impacting our timeline (it\u2019s not, really). \u00a0I found out the other day that our home study has to go to our adoption agency before we can submit it to Immigration, which is yet another step I didn\u2019t realize we had to take. \u00a0It\u2019s probably only a few extra days (if that!), but it might as well be a lifetime to my \u201ccome on, let\u2019s get this show on the road\u201d brain. \u00a0It\u2019s just been a hard few days, friends. \u00a0Reality is kind of biting right now.<\/p>\n
So now we\u2019re doing everything we can to be ready to take the next steps as soon as we have our home study in hand, and we wait. \u00a0The paperwork for Immigration is filled out and waiting for the word go. \u00a0I\u2019m hoping that this post will serve as the universe’s invitation to prove everything I\u2019ve written wrong and everything will start moving at lightening speed. \u00a0A girl can hope right?<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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