Y’all. We leave in SIX DAYS. S-I-X. As in one less then 7, one more then 5. SIX.
This is a very auspicious day because a year ago today, we signed with our adoption agency and started this whole crazy process. It seems unreal that a year ago, we only imagined our daughter, and now we get to meet her in 6 days.
The crazy thing with adoption is that so much of it is waiting. Once you’re done with the dossier part, you’re largely just hanging out while people to pass all your paperwork around and give it their approval, so you just WAIT…. and then the last person stamps it and it’s GO TIME. We got Travel Approval June 25th, got our Consulate Appointment and scheduled our plane tickets on the 26th and we take off the 8th. That’s crazy fast!
It also means that reality comes slamming in, and for me it’s been some hard moments realizing that Eden won’t be my only anymore. I assume this is something that every mom goes through when their first baby isn’t their only baby anymore, but that’s been hard the last few days. Add that to the logistical demands of packing for China and tying up last minute details, which takes a lot of my time and ooof, Mom Guilt like WHOA. I know we will all adjust and it’s going to be so good, but I think we’re all grieving what is because we don’t yet fully know what will be.
Josh and I both feel like our emotions change radically every 5 minutes… we’re happy, sad, worried, excited, nervous, ready to go and completely overwhelmed with everything that still has to be done. I don’t know, you guys. I want to put a pretty bow on this, but right now it’s kind of like we’re just muddling through to the end. We’re trying to stay present and actually live the next 6 days aware and that’s taking all we’ve got right now.
We are looking forward to having this part of it done, and getting on a plane and being able to just FOCUS on getting to Jia. That is one thing we don’t have any conflicted emotions about…we are ECSTATIC about finally getting her in our arms and finding out who she really is. We know that this is going to be SO HARD for her, and that what is exciting for us is terrifying for her. That part of it is heartbreaking. We will actually meet her on July 13th around 11:00am (so 11pm July 12th Eastern time) and we’d really love it if people would pray and send all their positive energy for her that night.
So, here’s my conclusion… we’re all a little bonkers, and we probably will be for a while. We’ve been leaning on friends and family and your prayers and good thoughts and kind words lately and are so grateful for them all. I’ve had so many people offer to help do anything we need and even though I haven’t been good at taking people up on their offers, just the offers themselves and knowing people are thinking of us has meant so much.
I am going to try to blog here during our trip so stop back! Can’t wait to share this crazy adventure with you!